Be Kind, Always

I'm pissed and emotional. Tonight ended on a very poor note at work and I just have to say- BE KIND, ALWAYS. If you aren't happy about something, say something BUT be respectful about it. You don't know what the other person has dealt with/is dealing with. I am thankful for hugs and texts from friends to make me feel better! They truly made me feel better after a completely shitty way to end my night. We do not get paid enough to work as charge nurse! The abuse we take from people who have no clue how difficult the job of charge really is, is astounding. If people could take a walk in the charge nurse's shoes for a shift, they would see just how tough it is. BUT, I am a strong lady and will not let this night bring me down. I know I did what I thought was best and I will hold my head high. I'm human and make mistakes, but at least I have the finesse to deal with them gracefully. 

Fair Day

I spent the day at one of my favorite places: the state fair. Food was eaten, wine was shared, and steps were completed. I wish I had the energy to tell you all about what I did and ate but I'm just so exhausted. Know this: it was a wonderful day all around!

Feels Like Christmas

It feels like it's Christmas Eve. Wonderful things are happening tomorrow and I can't sleep because I'm too excited!! Visions of Pronto pups dance in my head! I must try and get some rest for the big day ahead!

Chaos and Health

It has been a busy few days with a lot going on. Thankfully, things seem to be moving in the right direction. Very thankful for an amazing family of strength, as well as awesome friends helping out. The last few dates have been exhausting and I'm hoping that tonight I will get some much needed rest. My body aches and my brain can't seem to stop running at a thousand miles a minute. Even in my dreams I have been stressed out and emotional. I know I need to just let go of the things I can't control, and focus on the things I can control. It's a learning process, but at least I know what I need to work on. 

Tomorrow is Another Day

I spent a majority of the day pissed off. Too much to write about. I am thankful for awesome friends at work who always know how to make me smile and laugh. I'm also extremely grateful for a wonderfully supportive family who is always there for me! 

My Monday

Today was my monday. I'm already exhausted and not looking forward to the long weekend of work ahead. Time for bed to rest up. 

Rough Night Part 2

Yep, another rough night was had at work. Attitudes were terrible and it's always hard to stay positive with all that negativity swirling around. I will admit that I was drawn into the negativity and my attitude was not the greatest either. My mood since leaving work has improved quite significantly due to a cute message from someone, as well as a yummy glass of wine. I'm feeling much more relaxed and am ready to crawl into bed. I'm sure that my fluctuating mood is mostly due to the hormones going through me this week. This is why being a girl sucks ASS. On the way to work I was listening to music and, in my short ride, I went from crying with a sad song, to bopping along to a happy and fun song. Being a girl is hard. I deserve a massage and some chocolate and a hot bath and a million dollars and a house filled with doggies and.... ok, I guess it's time for bed. I deserve a good night's rest! Lots to do on my one day off tomorrow. 

Hangry

No break at work, crazy heavy patients, and non stop running. That's what my night at work consisted of. I'm exhausted and crabby and am on the verge of tears. Just thinking about going back tomorrow makes me want to drown my sorrows in wine and ice cream. I'm doing neither, in case you were wondering. Thankfully, my self control has gotten stronger. Yay for weight loss and baggy pants. My saving grace was getting a hug from my work wife, Melanie, at the end of my shift. Also, getting a cute goodnight message can always cheer a girl up! I'm going to try and get some sleep, and think positive thoughts about the work week ahead.

Feeling Good

What a lovely day!! I did some cleaning and more packing, and was rewarded by a wonderful dinner with even better company! My mom and my second mom (Linda), came to see me and we went out to dinner. It was a great time, lots of laughs, and lots of catching up and making fun plans! After dinner we came back to my place and continued to chat. After they headed home, I did a little reading, but decided to be productive so I booked my moving truck and movers! Now all I have to do is focus on packing!! But what a daunting task that is. I don't know where to start and I have so much CRAP!!! Well, somehow and someway, it will all get done!! Just feeling emotionally well lately. Happy and positive! My cramps are killing me though. But I will make it through!! Be warned, my hormones make me crazy! I was watching the movie The Perfect Storm this afternoon and I could not stop balling at the end. At least I know why! Tears may flow this week, but know that my spirit is a joyful one!

Got My Girls

A Saturday filled with friends is probably the best way to spend your time. My wonderful, crazy ladies popped my Ikea cherry today, and boy was I enjoying every moment. I wanted to buy everything, but had to resort to taking mental notes for when I buy my own place. Then, we did a little more shopping close to home, stopped for a slice of pie (cuz we had shopped all the calories off, duh!), and then made our way to pick up some adult beverages. I have found my new favorite wine and was happy to find it at a small liquor store. The rest of the evening was spent reading, packing, and there may have been a nap. Of course, now I can't fall asleep because of that nap, so I will continue to clean, pack, and start a new book. Today was so much fun!! And the fun will continue with a family day tomorrow! 

Be careful what you wish for!

I'm so tired, can barely keep my eyes open. Today was a busy but productive day. I got a lot of things crossed off my to do list, and I smiled almost all day. It's the simple things in life!

Big Day

Today was a big day for Allina nurses. We voted to reject their offer and have once again, voted to strike. This time, there is no end in sight. It will be an open ended strike. A lot of thoughts and emotions are flowing through my brain. Perhaps I will share them in the coming days, but for now, I still need to process everything that's happening. 

Laughing is My Favorite

I won't bore you with another post about how much I love my friends. I wouldn't want you to be jealous of all the awesome people I have that make me laugh embarrassingly hard. I'm in such a wonderful place right now and I feel like this is the happiest I've ever been. Realizing one's self worth can be such an emotional booster. Knowing I'm good enough and deserve the best and knowing I'm worthy of the best is such an empowering feeling. Positivity really does attract positivity. That's a huge lesson doing this blog has taught me. And I'm so ready to see what else the world has in store for me! 

Adulting Day

Today was for being an adult. Errands were run, chores were done, dinner was made, and then the relaxation in the form of reading a new book took place. I'm currently snuggled in bed, reading a book, and my eyes are getting heavy. Day well spent, blessings counted. 

My Girls

What a fabulous day full of smiles and laughter! Today was filmed with tune with my friends and I couldn't get any luckier to have such awesome people in my life!! I love each and every one of you!! Thanks for such a great low key day of just hanging out! 

Boobs

I enjoyed a lovely day on call without having to go into work. I spent the day going through more stuff and ended up with another trash bag of crap I don't have to move! Then, I went to dinner with a good friend. Lots of laughs were shared. Especially when the waitress accidentally grazed my boob while setting down my plate. She was quick to apologize and said "I'm pretty sure I just touched your boob". To which I replied "That's ok. It's the most action I've gotten in months". She had a great sense of humor and laughed and then said "Same for me". Needless to say, she got a great tip! We laughed about that for the rest of the night. My boobs seem to have a mind of their own and get in the way. They've been known to take out tables when unsupervised. I have got to learn to keep an eye on these trouble makers. They sure do give me some good stories though! 

Mmmm Wine

I found my new favorite wine at my favorite restaurant. Tonight, I came home from work, and after Easter was fed and pottied, I poured myself a glass and slipped into a delightful bubble bath. I used my special bubble bath with essential oils that helped me relax. The wine just helped relax me even more. I think I will be asleep before midnight for the first time in a very long time. 

Busy Day

What a busy day! I was oncall for work for a bit so I took advantage of the spare time and went through some more stuff. I also tried out a new recipe for sugar cookies and did a little baking. I made a few adjustments to the recipe and the cookies were very yummy! Once I was called into work it was even busier! I'm more than ready for a good night's rest!

Love

The loves of my life have 4 legs. Yes, I'm talking about my dogs. They have taught me about unconditional love and have always been there for me. They know when I'm sad and give me attention. I love them with all my heart. Elvis has half, and Easter has the other half. What sparked this topic? Well, tonight as I'm laying in bed, Easter jumps up, and lady's down close to me in the crook of my arm. She rests her head on my arm, and her paw is on my chest. She looks into my eyes, and I look into hers. Then, her eyes slowly blink closed as she falls asleep. And what do I do? I cry. The love I have for this dog completely overwhelms me. I know it might sound stupid, but she's more than just a dog. She is my child and I am so thankful to have this goofy girl in my life. The same goes for my stubborn, loving guy Elvis. I'm excited to move back home so that I can get a hug from my little boy each and every day. I miss him so much and I know he will be happy to have his Mary back. 

Productive Day

I'm glad you all enjoyed the fact that I was called a bitch last night! I'm pretty sure that was my most viewed post thus far. Anyways, today was very productive. I was busy cleaning and going through all my clothes in my dressers. I am proud of myself that I downsized by half! The goodwill will be getting a large donation! All my clothes can now fit in one dresser instead of 2. That is a pretty huge accomplishment!! Yay me!! Gonna keep up this attitude and get rid of even more stuff!

Bitch

Well, let's see. Being called a bitch was the highlight of my night. At least I was able to laugh about it! Can't take those kind of moments to heart in this line of work. Just gonna crawl into bed, put on a movie I've seen 100 times, and fall asleep cuddling with my Easter bunny. I'm looking forward to my one day off this week. Lots on the to-do list, but at least it can be done without wearing a bra! Yay!

Laughter Is The Best Medicine

Working with an amazing group of people who make you laugh until you almost pee yourself has to be the best medicine in the world. I just couldn't stop laughing and I'm so lucky to have found people with the same disgusting and inappropriate humor that I have. Laughing with your friends really can make all the difference in your day. I feel so much more at peace and in a better mood. I also know that I will be able to sleep better tonight! I'm looking forward to falling asleep, cuddled up next to Easter, dreaming about all my awesome friends and thinking about all the laughter that was had tonight. 

Sleep Texting

So, today's post is a funny story about what happened today. I must start off the post with a warning.  Sleep texting is a dangerous thing. You could make plans that you don't actually wanna do, accidentally send nudes to your mom, or text that ex that you really shouldn't be talking to. Sleep texting rates right up there drunk texting. Pretty close actually. So my experience happened over night last night. I wake up multiple times in the night, and will often look at my phone. Well, I had received a message from a good friend and I completely remember reading it and then I responded. I fell asleep, woke up a little later and saw I had another text. I remember reading the text and then falling back asleep. Well, I guess that wasn't what actually happened because I woke up to another text. Had I responded? Yep. I had sleep texted. And it wasn't pretty. Here is what it looked like:

Thankfully, all I did was ramble incoherently. We both had quite the chuckle out of it!! I still laugh when I see it!! So there's why you shouldn't sleep text kids. You will end up confusing your friend!! I think maybe I'll take some tylenol pm and see what kind of message I can come up with! Get ready, Jenny!!

Girls Day Part 2

Today was another great day. I had lunch and saw a movie with my bestie and most favorite roomie! We saw Ghostbusters and I thought it was really good! I can't remember the last movie I saw in the theater that made me laugh that hard. I was then in a cleaning/organizing mood, so I went to town. My living room looks awesome, so much space now that I just have a love seat. Tomorrow, the cleaning/organizing will continue in my bedroom. Feels good to have things in order. Gotta start going through all my stuff to get rid of the crap, and to start packing!

Girls Day Part 1

What a lovely day!! Spent the day with an awesome friend! We went to lunch, got our nails done, went to Costco (yes, I have been shown the light and I'm officially hooked!), and then had dinner and hung out at her place. We even got the pups together for a play date! It was a great day! Now I have pretty toes and fingers, a fully belly, and enough toilet paper to last me a year!! I also had a productive night. I got several things in order in regards to my move, so I am feeling pretty good. Overall, it was a fun and productive day!! 

Headache

I have a pounding headache and am not gonna write a long post. Positive moment was that I made it through work,  no one died, and I didn't cry. Me not crying is always a positive. 

Cool As A Cucumber

Today didn't start off the greatest. I was crabby because I got no sleep last night. It was way too hot to sleep. Even Easter was having a rough night. I felt so bad for my poor baby. Thankfully, after a very miserable night, the repair man came and fixed my air. Once things started to cool off, I was able to take a quick nap before work. Not nearly as much sleep as I needed, but thankful for SOME sleep. Work was ok, got to work with some of my faves (not all tho!). I'm very much looking forward to actually being able to get some much needed sleep tonight, and I know Easter is too!! 

That's What Friends Are For

I spent a majority of the day beyond irritated and frustrated. People don't seem to think MY time is of any value and that I can handle shit that isn't my responsibility. I am so sick and tired of making sacrifices for people who wouldn't and won't do the same for me. I'm tired of always being the bigger person and having to put my "adult" pants on. Even when it's not my concern. It's not fair. And I'm done doing it for people. Handle your own shit. Be an adult, and take care of your own responsibilities. I can't even put into words how angry I was today (and frankly, still am). I tried not to let it get to me, but it just grated on my nerves all day. My one saving grace was going to lunch with a friend. We went to the Cheesecake Factory and enjoyed a nice meal together and an even better dessert. She was able to take my mind off of my frustrations and showed me the positives of the day. On the ride to and from lunch, we rocked out to music and it calmed my soul- even if it was for a brief moment. She helped distract me and make me laugh and those are the moments I am clinging to in order to stay positive. I'm thankful for the friends in my life that are supportive and bend over backwards for me. I'd go to the ends of the earth for them, and they'd do (and have done) the same for me. 

Pooped

The heat sure can take a lot out of a person. Today was a busy day of moving things and seeing friends. It just reassured me that I am on the road I am meant to be on. Life is as it should be.