Pooped, but in a good way

I'm exhausted, but it's a productive tired feeling. The past 2 days have been very hectic and crazy. The good thing is that my to do list has grown significantly shorter and mom and I are close to being ready for her up and coming surgery. I know tonight's sleep will be wonderful and is well deserved. 

I Know

I know I haven't written in a few days and life just got away from me. Today started out with the morning from hell, but I kept a positive mind set and tried to keep smiling through all the shit that was thrown at me today. After a long day, but made better by some awesome friends, I'm smiling as I lay in bed, and that's what this is all about!

Bed

Another busy day today, so I am thankful for my bed. I'm thankful to be curled up under a nice warm blanket, and hopefully the dog next door will shut the hell up so I can get some sleep. 

Happy Thanksgiving

Even though today didn't go as planned, I still was able to see some of my family. For that, I am truly thankful. I am thankful for my family each and every day of the year. Today, I am also thankful for where I am at in life, and even though it has been a rough year, I am so very thankful for the lessons I've learned. The lessons have taught me that I am a much stronger person than I could have ever imagined. I've also learned what I will and will not put up with in my life. I matter,and my hopes and dreams matter. I've learned to never put those hopes and dreams on hold for someone else because that's not fair to myself. I've wasted far too much of my time supporting the hopes and dreams of others, with no thought or support of mine. Yes, that makes me angry but it's time for me to be "selfish" and focus on making my dreams come true. This year and this blog has helped me to be a way more positive person, and I will continue that into next year. I will also take time and be patient with myself. What ever is meant to happen, will happen when it's the right time. I look forward to an empowering year and will continue to be so very thankful for the wonderful family and friends in my life. You all make my life so much brighter. Thank you.

Holiday Mood

I'm laying in bed, toasty warm, ready to drift off into dream land and I can't help but be excited for Thanksgiving. I have so much to be thankful for this year and I can't wait to tell you all about those things tomorrow. For tonight, let those turkey drumsticks dance in your dreams!

New Friends

Today started off rough. I was rudely awoken by the sound of my dog puking. Before I could get him outside, he puked 3 times. It's one thing to clean up human vomit, but it's another when it's dog puke. I almost added my own pile to the mix. But the day turned around when I did some errands and then met up with a new friend for a drink. We had a great time laughing and talking. I'm looking forward to a new friendship. We have gone through some similar things in the past few months and it was nice to talk to someone who understands. She's a great gal and I'm lucky to have this new friend in my life!

Lovely Weekend

I'm thankful for a low census at work, which allowed me to be home on a low need yesterday and on call today. Fear not! These days were not squandered. I helped my mom get the last of her winterizing done so she didn't have to do it all herself. I know she appreciates my help and is glad to have me, and I'm happy to be able to help her all I can. I'm very much looking forward to tomorrow, but I guess you'll have to read about that in tomorrow's post. 

On Call

Enjoyed a relaxing night on call. Mom and I both feel asleep in the afternoon, and enjoyed some time just relaxing. She napped in her chair, I napped on the love seat, the dogs napped in their beds, and everyone was happy. These are the days I love. If only I had gotten a low need so I didn't have to be on edge the entire night waiting for a call. Oh well, there is always tomorrow!!

Beautiful Day

It was a lovely day to have off from work. I was able to enjoy the beautiful weather and get some yard work done for my mom. I also ran some errands, and of course spent time with my puppies! I came home, made dinner for mom and I, and then spent the evening relaxing with my loves. Day well spent!!

Super Moon

This super moon needs to go away and FAST!!! Work has been pretty busy and lots of random issues. I'm so looking forward to my day off and doing errands around town! 

Great Weekend

What a wonderful weekend! Yesterday was my little boy's birthday! Of course he got a new toy and a special treat that he shared with Easter. Such a big boy now. He turned 11 and is officially an old man! 

Today was so much fun! I co-hosted a baby shower for a very dear friend. It was so much fun getting together with all our friends, eating good food, and laughing the day away! What a great way to shower new life with joy and fun!

Shopping

Very productive day! Got the yard raked, leaves picked up, and dumped off at the recycling plant! Then mom and I went to the mall to get some Christmas shopping done. We got some great deals and enjoyed spending time together! 

What a Shift

Tonight was an interesting and challenging night at work for sure. Never a dull moment in that place. I'm very ready to crawl into my nice cozy bed, pull the covers up to my chin, and conk out until noon tomorrow!! Thank you, cough medicine with codeine for helping me fall asleep, stay asleep, and limit my coughing!

Thoughts

A lot has transpired these past few days, and I have an abundance of thoughts that I want to express. So many emotions overflowing in my soul that I just cannot contain them any longer. Let's start with the events that transpired this afternoon. I was supposed to meet someone for coffee, he never showed, never texted me. Left me there to sit like a complete ass. Well, here's the kicker. I learned something about myself. I learned that I am so much stronger than I ever realized. In the past, something like this would devastate me. Was I sad? Sure. Rejection hurts, no matter how it happens. But am I a better person? Of course. As a good friend reminded me, it wasn't a waste of time, it was an experience to learn from. I learned that I deserve so much better, that I am the bigger person, and that I actually have a heart. That pitiful excuse of a boy has none of that. It's no wonder he's 35 and single. Karma will bite him in the ass. I just have to say, I have some AMAZING people in my life. So many people reached out to me on Facebook to tell me what a great person I am and what a catch I am. Makes a girl feel wonderful, and definitely picks a girl up when she's feeling pretty low. I have some unbelievably supportive friends and I certainly wouldn't have the attitude I have now without them. They stand by me through thick and thin, whether I'm wrong or right, and through the good and the bad. Lord knows I've had to find out who my REAL friends are the hard way in the past few years, but they are very important lessons and make me cling tighter to those REAL friends. I'm no longer giving any attention to people who treat me like crap, bash me, and pin all their problems on me. I have to realize that it is not my fault, and that they have problems with themselves that they have to make me out to be the bad person. When I'm wrong, I own up to it. And when I'm being treated like crap, I don't tolerates it anymore. So, thank you to all my REAL friends out there. You mean the world to me, and I hope I can pick you up in return for making my crappy day turn bright! 

Cough Cough Cough

Can't stop coughing. Lungs hurt. Send alcohol. Pleasssssse.

Rest

My lungs feel like they are burning. They ache from coughing but the medicine helps me sleep. Today was one of rest, and tomorrow will be the same. I did get a phone call from my aunt with bad news about a family member, but I don't feel like sharing about that right now. Payette and positive thoughts would be appreciated and welcomed. Puts my sickness in perspective and I know it could always be worse. 

Fun filled day

What a fun filled day. I hit to see some awesome friends who made me feel better and took my mind off of my lungs filling with fluid. I went to the doc today and was told I have bronchitis abs the start of an ear infection. Unfortunately, I'll be spending this weekend in bed. Hopefully my wonderful mother will take care of me a little before I take care of her again in December. She will be having her other knee replaced! I'm excited to see her feel pain free finally. I'll post about that more, but the extra strength cough medicine with codeine is finally kicking in and I just might get some sleep tonight. Haven't slept much because of all the coughing so I'm really looking forward to a nights rest.

Working Hard

Just another day at the office. I had a really good group of patients tonight and they all reminded me of why I went into nursing. I wish every shift I could have awesome patients like I had tonight. Makes coming to work a lot easier! I also realized tonight that I love the skills my job encompasses. I don't think I could ever give it up and go work at a clinic. Just some thoughts I was having tonight...