And A Happy New Year

At this time last year, I vowed to keep a blog about changing my negative views into positive ones. I'm proud to say that I made it all the way until the end. Sure, I was slacking a little more these last few weeks, but the positivity remained. 

As I sit here, watching the clock tick closer and closer to midnight, I am reflecting on all of the things that happened this year. So many ups and downs, but here I stand. Holding on to my positivity. And I have to say, it has certainly made quite the difference. The positivity kept me smiling through the lows and kept me dancing during the high moments. I'm so thankful for the wonderful moments I've shared with family, friends, and everyone else. Reconnecting and continuing to build relationships with the wonderful friends I have has most definitely been a most memorable moment. I can't speak highly enough of the people that have remained by my side through everything. I'm very lucky! Along the same lines, I'm proud of myself for removing the negative people from my life. Permanently. I even made it Facebook official! Deleting them off of Facebook was the symbolic deleting them from my life and made me so happy and made me aware of what I really deserve in a friend, as well as in a romantic partner. 

I'm going into the new year so much happier, and on SUCH a better path. I can't wait to see what 2017 has in store for me. I'm sure with my new positive way at looking at life, things will only continue to get better. Thank you to the people that actually read this blog regularly and followed me on this journey for an entire year. Who knows.... maybe I'll keep this up! Only time will tell!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all 2 of my readers! The year is quickly coming to a close and I am gathering my thoughts for my final post. It has been quite the roller coaster of a year, and yet I'm still focused on the positives that have transpired. 

Santa is almost here

I know it has been a few days, but it's been pretty busy around here lately. I'm busy taking care of mom, taking care of the dogs, doing Christmas baking, and getting the house ready to host Christmas for the family. I'm very much looking forward to the time with family and just hanging out together! 

Christmas Baking

Today was a lovely day filed with baking a bunch of different holiday cookies, while listening to Christmas music. Of course I took great care of mom and the dogs. I even got to sleep in a little bit today! What a treat! Now off to bed so I can do the same tomorrow!

Angry Post

Hey all. I know I haven't written in a few days. It's been crazy busy around here, taking care of mom after her surgery. I wasn't planning on writing tonight but something happened and I just have to vent my frustrations. I have been single for going on 6 months now. Yes, I have plunged myself back in the dating scene and have the crazy stories to prove it. If you haven't read my status, I suggest you do. Well, on that post, a friend of my ex commented and it really bothered me (the comment has been removed, and the person defriended). The comment was along the lines of "you shouldn't have left the one who gave you everything". I was the bigger person and chose not to respond, when in reality, I could have said a lot. I have kept quiet about what went on because I respect myself and the other person I was in the relationship with enough to keep it off Facebook. It wasn't the right fit for either of us and I will leave it at that. But for someone who wasn't IN the relationship to make that kind of comment is not just rude, it's tasteless. I would never comment on someone else's relationship when I don't know the whole story and I guarantee you, this person did not have the whole story. On another note, yes, I am still friends with people I meet while in the relationship. It's because I genuinely liked the people. I never asked anyone to take sides in the breakup and assumed we could all be adults and remain friends. I hope this stays the case. Now that I got that out, I feel much better. Thank you for listening/reading my rant of a post tonight!

Insane

What a crazy shift. I'm glad I get a 2 week break starting now. By the ebbs of these 2 weeks I will be dying to go back to the craziness! In so thankful to have been working with some amazing people tonight. I owe my sanity to them and they know who they are. Of course I can't get to sleep, knowing I need to be awake in a few hours to take mom for her surgery. Let the tossing and turning begin. 

Sundays are for napping

I had a lovely girls weekend! First was White Christmas, and then yesterday started an overnight with the bestie. First we got our nails done, had lunch, and then made our way up to the casino where we lost our money and spent the night! It was great spending quality time together and just getting away from the stresses of life! 

White Christmas

What a simply wonderful winter evening!! Me, mom, and Linda had a great girls night together. We went and saw the musical White Christmas at the Ordway. It was fabulous! I may have even let a tear or two slip. It was even better when we left the theater,  snow was falling. Only down side was it was cold as shit! We hurried over to the St. Paul hotel and made our way into the St. Paul Grille for a delicious desert! Such a fun night!!

Busy busy busy

It was a busy, but steady night at work. I'm looking forward to tomorrow being over since it's my Friday! I have a lot of exciting plans coming up and I am super excited!! Now to get some sleep before my Friday starts!

Dinner Out

Everyone had a great night out tonight. Delicious food was had, fabulous company was kept, and laughter filled the air. I'm so thankful for the strong women in my life! They are always there for me- good times or bad. Tonight was one of the good moments!

TGIS

Thank God it's Sunday! I've made it through the difficult weekend and I am so excited for my few days off! Tomorrow will be busy, but fun and no work! Bed sounds like a lovely place right now and I will be in dream land very soon!

CrAzY WoRk ShIfT

Work has been crazy busy the last few days and I have been running my butt off. I am thankful for my job, my coworkers, and that busy means I still have a job to go to. Busy also makes for a quick night. I am very much looking forward to crawling into my bed tonight, cuddling with a pup or 2, and drifting off to sleep. 

Pooped, but in a good way

I'm exhausted, but it's a productive tired feeling. The past 2 days have been very hectic and crazy. The good thing is that my to do list has grown significantly shorter and mom and I are close to being ready for her up and coming surgery. I know tonight's sleep will be wonderful and is well deserved. 

I Know

I know I haven't written in a few days and life just got away from me. Today started out with the morning from hell, but I kept a positive mind set and tried to keep smiling through all the shit that was thrown at me today. After a long day, but made better by some awesome friends, I'm smiling as I lay in bed, and that's what this is all about!

Bed

Another busy day today, so I am thankful for my bed. I'm thankful to be curled up under a nice warm blanket, and hopefully the dog next door will shut the hell up so I can get some sleep. 

Happy Thanksgiving

Even though today didn't go as planned, I still was able to see some of my family. For that, I am truly thankful. I am thankful for my family each and every day of the year. Today, I am also thankful for where I am at in life, and even though it has been a rough year, I am so very thankful for the lessons I've learned. The lessons have taught me that I am a much stronger person than I could have ever imagined. I've also learned what I will and will not put up with in my life. I matter,and my hopes and dreams matter. I've learned to never put those hopes and dreams on hold for someone else because that's not fair to myself. I've wasted far too much of my time supporting the hopes and dreams of others, with no thought or support of mine. Yes, that makes me angry but it's time for me to be "selfish" and focus on making my dreams come true. This year and this blog has helped me to be a way more positive person, and I will continue that into next year. I will also take time and be patient with myself. What ever is meant to happen, will happen when it's the right time. I look forward to an empowering year and will continue to be so very thankful for the wonderful family and friends in my life. You all make my life so much brighter. Thank you.

Holiday Mood

I'm laying in bed, toasty warm, ready to drift off into dream land and I can't help but be excited for Thanksgiving. I have so much to be thankful for this year and I can't wait to tell you all about those things tomorrow. For tonight, let those turkey drumsticks dance in your dreams!

New Friends

Today started off rough. I was rudely awoken by the sound of my dog puking. Before I could get him outside, he puked 3 times. It's one thing to clean up human vomit, but it's another when it's dog puke. I almost added my own pile to the mix. But the day turned around when I did some errands and then met up with a new friend for a drink. We had a great time laughing and talking. I'm looking forward to a new friendship. We have gone through some similar things in the past few months and it was nice to talk to someone who understands. She's a great gal and I'm lucky to have this new friend in my life!

Lovely Weekend

I'm thankful for a low census at work, which allowed me to be home on a low need yesterday and on call today. Fear not! These days were not squandered. I helped my mom get the last of her winterizing done so she didn't have to do it all herself. I know she appreciates my help and is glad to have me, and I'm happy to be able to help her all I can. I'm very much looking forward to tomorrow, but I guess you'll have to read about that in tomorrow's post. 

On Call

Enjoyed a relaxing night on call. Mom and I both feel asleep in the afternoon, and enjoyed some time just relaxing. She napped in her chair, I napped on the love seat, the dogs napped in their beds, and everyone was happy. These are the days I love. If only I had gotten a low need so I didn't have to be on edge the entire night waiting for a call. Oh well, there is always tomorrow!!

Beautiful Day

It was a lovely day to have off from work. I was able to enjoy the beautiful weather and get some yard work done for my mom. I also ran some errands, and of course spent time with my puppies! I came home, made dinner for mom and I, and then spent the evening relaxing with my loves. Day well spent!!

Super Moon

This super moon needs to go away and FAST!!! Work has been pretty busy and lots of random issues. I'm so looking forward to my day off and doing errands around town! 

Great Weekend

What a wonderful weekend! Yesterday was my little boy's birthday! Of course he got a new toy and a special treat that he shared with Easter. Such a big boy now. He turned 11 and is officially an old man! 

Today was so much fun! I co-hosted a baby shower for a very dear friend. It was so much fun getting together with all our friends, eating good food, and laughing the day away! What a great way to shower new life with joy and fun!

Shopping

Very productive day! Got the yard raked, leaves picked up, and dumped off at the recycling plant! Then mom and I went to the mall to get some Christmas shopping done. We got some great deals and enjoyed spending time together! 

What a Shift

Tonight was an interesting and challenging night at work for sure. Never a dull moment in that place. I'm very ready to crawl into my nice cozy bed, pull the covers up to my chin, and conk out until noon tomorrow!! Thank you, cough medicine with codeine for helping me fall asleep, stay asleep, and limit my coughing!

Thoughts

A lot has transpired these past few days, and I have an abundance of thoughts that I want to express. So many emotions overflowing in my soul that I just cannot contain them any longer. Let's start with the events that transpired this afternoon. I was supposed to meet someone for coffee, he never showed, never texted me. Left me there to sit like a complete ass. Well, here's the kicker. I learned something about myself. I learned that I am so much stronger than I ever realized. In the past, something like this would devastate me. Was I sad? Sure. Rejection hurts, no matter how it happens. But am I a better person? Of course. As a good friend reminded me, it wasn't a waste of time, it was an experience to learn from. I learned that I deserve so much better, that I am the bigger person, and that I actually have a heart. That pitiful excuse of a boy has none of that. It's no wonder he's 35 and single. Karma will bite him in the ass. I just have to say, I have some AMAZING people in my life. So many people reached out to me on Facebook to tell me what a great person I am and what a catch I am. Makes a girl feel wonderful, and definitely picks a girl up when she's feeling pretty low. I have some unbelievably supportive friends and I certainly wouldn't have the attitude I have now without them. They stand by me through thick and thin, whether I'm wrong or right, and through the good and the bad. Lord knows I've had to find out who my REAL friends are the hard way in the past few years, but they are very important lessons and make me cling tighter to those REAL friends. I'm no longer giving any attention to people who treat me like crap, bash me, and pin all their problems on me. I have to realize that it is not my fault, and that they have problems with themselves that they have to make me out to be the bad person. When I'm wrong, I own up to it. And when I'm being treated like crap, I don't tolerates it anymore. So, thank you to all my REAL friends out there. You mean the world to me, and I hope I can pick you up in return for making my crappy day turn bright! 

Cough Cough Cough

Can't stop coughing. Lungs hurt. Send alcohol. Pleasssssse.

Rest

My lungs feel like they are burning. They ache from coughing but the medicine helps me sleep. Today was one of rest, and tomorrow will be the same. I did get a phone call from my aunt with bad news about a family member, but I don't feel like sharing about that right now. Payette and positive thoughts would be appreciated and welcomed. Puts my sickness in perspective and I know it could always be worse. 

Fun filled day

What a fun filled day. I hit to see some awesome friends who made me feel better and took my mind off of my lungs filling with fluid. I went to the doc today and was told I have bronchitis abs the start of an ear infection. Unfortunately, I'll be spending this weekend in bed. Hopefully my wonderful mother will take care of me a little before I take care of her again in December. She will be having her other knee replaced! I'm excited to see her feel pain free finally. I'll post about that more, but the extra strength cough medicine with codeine is finally kicking in and I just might get some sleep tonight. Haven't slept much because of all the coughing so I'm really looking forward to a nights rest.

Working Hard

Just another day at the office. I had a really good group of patients tonight and they all reminded me of why I went into nursing. I wish every shift I could have awesome patients like I had tonight. Makes coming to work a lot easier! I also realized tonight that I love the skills my job encompasses. I don't think I could ever give it up and go work at a clinic. Just some thoughts I was having tonight...

Happy Halloween!

I basically spent my Halloween in a haunted house all night.... I was at work. And we all know hospitals are haunted. It was a decent night but the best part was who u worked with tonight. It was a fun group, and when we took our break, we may or may not have went on a little ghost hunt. We may or may not have ended up by the morgue to do a little investigating and we were not disappointed. But that's for another blog... 

Scary Movie Night

The real scary stories aren't the ones made by Hollywood. It's those missed chances we never took. The risks we never dared to go after. I'm not going to live my life living with what ifs. I'm taking matters into my own hands and not missing another opportunity. You deserve the world, so why not go grab it by the balls? That's what I'm gonna do. Grab life by the balls and make it say "look at her go!". 

Sick

I've been feeling like ass for the past few days, so I haven't done much besides rest, cough, and blow my nose. I know you don't want those details so hopefully I start feeling better and get back into the swing of things. 

Bestie Date Night

A date night with the bestie is always needed, and tonight we had a lot of catching up to do. Time goes by way too fast when we are together! We had to plan another girls weekend so that we could have even more time together. Definitely looking forward to that!!

Go With the Flow

So tonight didn't quite go as planned, but it still turned out ok! Instead of an in person date, we had a phone date which was unique and fun. But I won't go into all the details cuz those are for me to know and you to find out! All I will tell you is I'm going to sleep with a smile on my face and plans for a fun weekend dancing in my head! 

Paris

As I lay in bed, all cuddled and warm, I'm watching the movie French Kiss. It's making me miss Paris so much. Memories of seeing the sites, tasting the delicious food, and taking in the culture comes rushing back. I want to go back so badly! I remember seeing the eiffel tower for the first time and the rush of emotion I felt. I want to feel that again. Maybe I just need to travel more. I've got that itch to get up and go to new places. Hmmmm..... where should I go first?

Rough Night

Another rough night at work. I'm thankful I only have one more night left before a few days off. Also looking forward to monday!! Trying to remain focused on the good!

Back to the Grind

Even though work is rough, it's so great to see the familiar faces that I missed. The tight welcome back hugs are the best! I feel like my 3 west crew had grown so close and we have become so much more cohesive as a group. I work with some pretty amazing people and, honestly, they are what keep me there. It's hard to think of working anywhere else after taking the time to really get to know my awesome coworkers. 

When You Least Expect It

I had a lovely evening filled with great conversation, a ton of laughs, and the possibility of something great. Yes, I had a date. Yes it was great. I don't want to get ahead of myself, but there was definitely talk of a second date. I'm very happy and very content with where I'm at. I'm not rushing things and will see where things go! 

Work Wife

I have THE BEST work wife ever!! I saw her at the beginning of my shift and I begged her to stay with me and just hold me. Work wasn't going well. She decided it would be more fun to go home. Damn. Later on in the shift, after it proceeded to get worse, she showed up unexpectedly with tasty treats for me! She is so wonderful and I love her so much!! She makes me smile when I need it most!! I'm so lucky to have such an amazing work wife and friend!!

Survival

I survived my first night back to work! It was like riding a bike. Was a little shakey starting the shift, but once I got back into the swing of things, it all came back to me. I have to admit, I was pretty nervous walking into work. I didn't know what to expect and wasn't sure of the reactions I'd get. It was kind of reminiscent of the first day of school. I wish my mom had been there to walk me in! I was pleasantly surprised and the reactions were mostly positive. It was so great to see everyone and I'm happy to be back. I'll be even happier when the paychecks start rolling in again! 

Lost Sleep

I haven't been sleeping the greatest, but all that changed last night. I finally felt tired and instead of passing the night surfing the web on my phone, I actually fell asleep right away. And didn't wake up until after 11. I looked at my clock and couldn't believe I had slept the whole night through! That hasn't happened in I don't even know how long! It must be the relief of knowing I'll be returning to work this week. It must also have been the love and support of the great friends I have. I know going back to work will pose it's own difficulties, but I'm going to cling to my positivity. Good things happen when put out positivity into the world!

Girls Night

What a fun night with some of my favorite ladies!! It was kind of a last relaxing night before heading back to work. I just love spending time with these funny ladies! Laughs are always plentiful! 

Craft Day

I did some crafts, saw a friend, and am now getting to calm myself about this huge vote taking place tomorrow. I can only control my vote and my mind is made up, so why worry right?

Last Day

Today was the last day of picketing before the vote takes place on Thursday. Emotions are running high and we all need to take a deep breath and take a day for just ourselves. I know that is what I am planning on doing tomorrow. No thinking about the strike. No thinking about the vote. Just do something fun. You'll have to read about the fun day I have planned in tomorrows post. I'll just say this- I will not be cleaning anything! I'm looking forward to it in my own nerdy way. 

Teen Mom Date Night

Had a lovely night spending time with a very good friend. We caught up on each other's lives and then watched our favorite show- Teen Mom. It was a wonderfully relaxing night filed with great friends, lots of laughs, and yummy food. These are my favorite kinds of nights. Spending time with an awesome friend, just hanging out!

Sunday Funday Chores

Today was mostly catching up on Sunday chores. I did them so mom could take it easy and watch the football game in peace. I even made dinner! I threw that in because usually mom makes sunday dinner. Since moving back home and being on strike, I have turned into a housewife. I cook, clean, and tend to the children. And by children, I mean dogs. I think I may have over done it with the chores because I am feeling quite sore tonight. Oh well. Knowing I am able to help my mom while I'm here is the best. I could never live under her roof without contributing in some way, and right now, chores and cooking for her are the best I can do!

Family is Happiness

Spending today with family was exactly what I needed. We laughed and talked about everything. I felt completely at home and was able to forget all my stresses. There really is nothing better than the love of your family to get you through the tough times. I will sleep a little easier tonight. So thankful for my wonderful family!

Sore

I spent the day hanging low with a heating pad and I'm starting to feel some relief. I'm still sore, but I'm taking it easy and not doing a whole lot to aggravate the issue. Hopefully things will be back to normal in a few more days. 

Still Spasming

Yep, still having the spasms. I've been using icy hot rub, warm showers, the heating pad, and a muscle relaxer at bed time. The heat is what seems to do the trick but only lasts for a short while. Last night, I couldn't even turn over in bed because the pain was so bad. I'm thankful for the time off to recover without having to call in sick at work, but I wish I could go to the doctor and get some help. 

Please Make It Stop

For the past few days, I've had some pain in the right side of my neck and shoulder. It felt like I slept on it funny or I thought it could be stress settling in one area. Tonight, it got worse. I made a fast move off the couch because the dogs were having a little tiff but man did I move wrong. Intense pain and muscle spasms are being had. I could barely get off the couch without screaming in agony. I can't even turn my head without pain. The best part of this whole miserable situation is that I can't even go to the doctor because I don't have health insurance. Thanks for that Allina. I guess I will continue taking advil and rubbing icy hot on my neck and shoulder and hope for the best. I'll gladly take any suggestions for some relief!!

Night Before

Lots to think about tonight on the eve of the big vote. My head continues to spin at all the information being thrown my way. It's a huge moment tomorrow for all the striking nurses. Lots going on in my brain tonight. 

Honesty Time

Can I be honest here? Well, no one reads these posts nowadays anyways so I might as well spill my guts. I have been feeling very down and have not wanted to continue this journey of writing every day. Mainly because, I'm sick of the strike situation. I will support the union until the very end and I will never cross the picket line... but it may be time to start looking for another job. One with a company who actually values their employees. I'm tired of feeling so beaten down and unappreciated. I just don't know what to do anymore when it comes to work. I have a very big decision to make in the coming days and I feel stuck in limbo. 

Hard Day

I didn't write last night because it was a difficult day for me. I always struggle on the anniversary of my dad's passing. It's a bitter reminder of the many memories and achievements made without him by my side. It's definitely an odd feeling to know that he has been gone longer than I knew him. I was only 11 when he died and it's been 16 years since he passed. I can't even begin to tell you how that feels. But, as I was reminded by a very dear friend, life goes on. More memories are made. I laugh. I continue to go on. Like tonight- had a wonderful time with my amazing work friends. It was a perfect way to blow off steam in light of all the strike drama. I had a blast and am so thankful for those bitches! 

Dogs Make Me Happy

My dogs make me happy and I'm thankful for their unconditional love. More people should have hearts like dogs,  and the world would be a better place. 

Always Comes Back to Friends

I love my friends! They always make me smile and laugh! We are the raunchiest bunch of weirdos to grace this planet and I'm so thankful to have them in my life. My weirdos are way better than yours!

Let the UNpacking Begin!

Now that my head doesn't feel like it's going to explode, I can get to the task of unpacking the stuff I brought to my mom's. I spent the day working on my bedroom and it finally feels like home. No more boxes and suitcases. Now all that's left to tackle is my closet! Going from a walk in closet to a small one is very difficult! I don't know where to put all my shoes! I'll figure it out though! That's half the fun. It's been strange being off work and spending all this time at my mom's, but I am sure thankful for this adjustment period without the stress of work. It was a hidden blessing for sure, but I'm hoping things go well tomorrow in negotiations and we get back to work soon!

Benadryl is Magic

Last night I was still suffering from a terrible headache so I took some meds and went to bed early. Today things were slightly better, but I still had to take it easy. Tonight, I'm feeling 75% better, and I'm hoping after another round of advil and benadryl I'll be feeling all better. Sleep seems to help, so I'm gonna try that now!

Migraine

Today was a day to lay low. A migraine kept me hanging low and out of commission for the day. I managed to get to the grocery store and that's about it. So thankful for a mom who made dinner and let me rest for most of the day. Hoping this sucker will be better by tomorrow. 

First Day of Fall

Today, while leisurely running errands, I noticed the changing leaves and that all too familiar crisp in the air. I took in the beauty and was able to appreciate the wonderful weather. I came home from errands, did some baking, and rewarded myself with a nap. My pups even decided the nap was a good idea. It was a lovely, relaxing day! 

I'm Done!

I'm done!! I've reached the other side of the tunnel!! I am completely done with moving and cleaning and I couldn't be happier!! Utterly exhausted, but happy! Sleep will be so sweet tonight!! And well deserved!!

Every Rose Has It's Thorn

I'm exhausted again, but the ultimate finish line is within sight. That light at the end of the tunnel continues to get brighter and brighter. At this time tomorrow, I will be through the tunnel and resting on the other side. That's right. After tomorrow, my move will be absolutely completed. I can't wait to be fully finished. I know that my sleep tomorrow night will be the most restful I've had in quite some time. I need to rest up for the final day. *Insert the Rocky theme song here* I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH!!!!

The Day After

Instead of having to frantically pack, I spent the day helping mom with chores around her house that needed to be done. It was a slow day and we took our time. No rushing. I took a shower this evening because we did yard work and while I was showering, I missed the show- cops were out front because the lady across the street was beating up her boyfriend on the front lawn. Everything exciting always happens when I'm not there! No more showers.... just incase!! ;)

Moving Day

The big move day has come and gone! Most of my stress has melted away! I'm so happy! I still have some stuff to move that will come to mom's and some cleaning to do, but all the big stuff is done! It's all down hill from here! I know I will sleep well FINALLY. I had a well-deserved glass of my favorite wine and am so looking forward to crawling into bed and sleeping in. I'd love to stay and chat with you all, but a decent night's rest is calling my name. I cannot resist any longer. Dream land, here I come!

The End is Near

The packing is done, the furniture is wrapped, now all that's left to do is pick up the truck and wait for the movers! I'll still have some stuff to move to my mom's but the big move and packing will be all done tomorrow! I can't wait! I've got a bottle of wine chilling in the fridge to celebrate with tomorrow evening! 

Crap!! I did it again

Yes, I know. I forgot to write a post last night. I have been absolutely burnt out, exhausted, and every other word for tired. Today is no different. Another day of packing and hauling and getting ready for Saturday. Tomorrow morning, I am allowing myself to sleep in and take time for myself. It will come as a surprise to most who know me that for the past 2 weeks, I have been getting up before 9am. That's early for me. Also, I haven't been sleeping much and my appetite has been very low, but I'm keeping positive and focusing on the light at the end of the tunnel! I will make it through! 

So Close I Can Taste It!

Another day spent packing and hauling stuff. I'm getting close to being done- THANK GOD! But I'm gonna have to be done soon because the movers are coming on Saturday! Ahh! Gotta hurry up!! I'm sorry to my friends if I haven't been as available lately. My days are literally filled with packing, hauling, and unpacking. I pack boxes, pack my car, haul my stuff to my mom's, unload my car, and unpack the boxes and bags and suitcases so that I can do it all again the next day. I cannot wait for this move to be done and over with! I finally made some time to shower and even eat today! Yay! That's always a plus! Now, I'm hoping I'll be able to sleep for even a few hours tonight. We shall see. It will be another busy day of packing, hauling, and then spending some time on the picket line. 

Ugh

Had a great evening spending time with the bestie. We went to a favorite restaurant, had yummy food, and caught up on life! I need more days filled with friends and less packing in my life!! Soon I hope!

Productive Day

Today was a productive day at my mom's house. I was able to clean  and unpack some stuff here.... just to make room for more shit. BUT a happy addition was made today- cable to my bedroom. Now I won't have to worry about locking myself in there on long, cold, lonely winter nights. Now if only I had a door on my room.... the simple things in life. Mom also was happy with the day and had some painting done that she had been desperate for someone to do. She found a lovely handyman through the neighbors and he did an awesome job!! Highly recommend! And so nice. Well, I think I'll break in my new cable as I head off to bed! Now, what to watch? First world problems. We have it so good. Be thankful for all you have! I know I am!

Making a Haul

What a busy day spent packing and loading and unloading and then unpacking. Today, my mom came over to help me do some more packing. After packing as much as we could, we loaded up both our cars and headed home. Then we had to unload the cars and I had to unpack. This whole packing thing is getting pretty old. Needless to say, sleep is a rare commodity these days because I'm so stressed out. I'm hoping for a good nights sleep tonight. Boy, I've earned it. After the move, I know I'll be able to sleep again! Just gotta make it that far!

Day on the Line

Spent some time on the picket line and enjoyed seeing my coworkers and friends. Afterwards, it was back to the same old packing routine. Mom is coming tomorrow to help and I an hoping to get close to being done!

Déja vu

I'm starting to sound like a broken record. Yes, it was another day filled with packing. I'm starting to dream about boxes and bubble wrap. I've decided that tomorrow morning I will do some baking and spend the afternoon on the picket line. Of course I will bring what I bake to the wonderful people on the picket line. I need a day to relax and not think about packing all day long. Of course, once I get home I will do a little work. There's still so much to be done, and the time continues to tick on. I just have to remember that soon it will all be done!

Packing

My life is quite boring at the moment. I pack all day and inch a tad bit closer to being done everyday. I'm hoping to finish my kitchen tomorrow and that chore will be done. Then all I will have left is.... my upstairs. Damn it. One step at a time, one box at a time. I will get there... eventually. 

Thank You For Being a Friend

I have amazing friends who are so awesome for helping me pack!! THANK YOU LADIES SO MUCH!!! From the bottom of my heart, I appreciate everyone that has helped me and have offered to help! You guys are great!!

Start of Something Big

Today was the first day of the open ended strike. I'm hoping Allina felt the strength of the union. It was inspiring to see so many friends and coworkers lifting each other up. I know we will continue with strength, solidarity, and our voices will be heard!

Eve of the Storm

As I lay in bed listening to the thunder and rain fall, I can't help but feel like someone is telling me something. That Allina had better get ready for the storm they are about to face as their nurses, once again, fight for what we and our patients deserve. As we set out on our fight, I know many emotions are being felt. Fear. Sadness. Anxiousness. But regardless of what we are feeling, we know we are doing the right thing for us and our patients. Or fight is not an easy one, but it is the right one. Know that you may be feeling weak and struggling with your emotions as one, but the nurses standing beside you on that line will hold you and give you their strength. And you will be someone else's strength. Now more than ever, we come together and stand strong in solidarity. 

Day 2 at the Fair

Today was spent at the fair again. And once again, my step goal was far surpassed. My muscles are twitching, my feet are sore, I'm slightly burned, and I'm happier than ever. I love the fair and it's even better with great company. Tonight I will sleep like a rock and let all my stresses fall to the side. I will focus on the joy of the day and company well spent. Sweet dreams of cookies and state fair people watching bingo will dance in my head.

My Friday

Many emotions were felt today. Tonight was my last shift before the the start of the strike. I had to clean out my locker and as I walked out the doors to leave, I couldn't help but feel a twinge of sadness and fear. It felt like I wouldn't be coming back. I know that one day, this fight will be done, and the nurses will win. We are strong.... but the fear is still there. At least I know I can turn to my friends and coworkers for support. And I will be there to provide support as well. Just one more obstacle to test my strength. Funny part is, I've already been through so much that I know I'm strong enough to get through this and any other obstacles that arise.

Be Kind, Always

I'm pissed and emotional. Tonight ended on a very poor note at work and I just have to say- BE KIND, ALWAYS. If you aren't happy about something, say something BUT be respectful about it. You don't know what the other person has dealt with/is dealing with. I am thankful for hugs and texts from friends to make me feel better! They truly made me feel better after a completely shitty way to end my night. We do not get paid enough to work as charge nurse! The abuse we take from people who have no clue how difficult the job of charge really is, is astounding. If people could take a walk in the charge nurse's shoes for a shift, they would see just how tough it is. BUT, I am a strong lady and will not let this night bring me down. I know I did what I thought was best and I will hold my head high. I'm human and make mistakes, but at least I have the finesse to deal with them gracefully. 

Fair Day

I spent the day at one of my favorite places: the state fair. Food was eaten, wine was shared, and steps were completed. I wish I had the energy to tell you all about what I did and ate but I'm just so exhausted. Know this: it was a wonderful day all around!

Feels Like Christmas

It feels like it's Christmas Eve. Wonderful things are happening tomorrow and I can't sleep because I'm too excited!! Visions of Pronto pups dance in my head! I must try and get some rest for the big day ahead!

Chaos and Health

It has been a busy few days with a lot going on. Thankfully, things seem to be moving in the right direction. Very thankful for an amazing family of strength, as well as awesome friends helping out. The last few dates have been exhausting and I'm hoping that tonight I will get some much needed rest. My body aches and my brain can't seem to stop running at a thousand miles a minute. Even in my dreams I have been stressed out and emotional. I know I need to just let go of the things I can't control, and focus on the things I can control. It's a learning process, but at least I know what I need to work on. 

Tomorrow is Another Day

I spent a majority of the day pissed off. Too much to write about. I am thankful for awesome friends at work who always know how to make me smile and laugh. I'm also extremely grateful for a wonderfully supportive family who is always there for me! 

My Monday

Today was my monday. I'm already exhausted and not looking forward to the long weekend of work ahead. Time for bed to rest up. 

Rough Night Part 2

Yep, another rough night was had at work. Attitudes were terrible and it's always hard to stay positive with all that negativity swirling around. I will admit that I was drawn into the negativity and my attitude was not the greatest either. My mood since leaving work has improved quite significantly due to a cute message from someone, as well as a yummy glass of wine. I'm feeling much more relaxed and am ready to crawl into bed. I'm sure that my fluctuating mood is mostly due to the hormones going through me this week. This is why being a girl sucks ASS. On the way to work I was listening to music and, in my short ride, I went from crying with a sad song, to bopping along to a happy and fun song. Being a girl is hard. I deserve a massage and some chocolate and a hot bath and a million dollars and a house filled with doggies and.... ok, I guess it's time for bed. I deserve a good night's rest! Lots to do on my one day off tomorrow. 

Hangry

No break at work, crazy heavy patients, and non stop running. That's what my night at work consisted of. I'm exhausted and crabby and am on the verge of tears. Just thinking about going back tomorrow makes me want to drown my sorrows in wine and ice cream. I'm doing neither, in case you were wondering. Thankfully, my self control has gotten stronger. Yay for weight loss and baggy pants. My saving grace was getting a hug from my work wife, Melanie, at the end of my shift. Also, getting a cute goodnight message can always cheer a girl up! I'm going to try and get some sleep, and think positive thoughts about the work week ahead.

Feeling Good

What a lovely day!! I did some cleaning and more packing, and was rewarded by a wonderful dinner with even better company! My mom and my second mom (Linda), came to see me and we went out to dinner. It was a great time, lots of laughs, and lots of catching up and making fun plans! After dinner we came back to my place and continued to chat. After they headed home, I did a little reading, but decided to be productive so I booked my moving truck and movers! Now all I have to do is focus on packing!! But what a daunting task that is. I don't know where to start and I have so much CRAP!!! Well, somehow and someway, it will all get done!! Just feeling emotionally well lately. Happy and positive! My cramps are killing me though. But I will make it through!! Be warned, my hormones make me crazy! I was watching the movie The Perfect Storm this afternoon and I could not stop balling at the end. At least I know why! Tears may flow this week, but know that my spirit is a joyful one!

Got My Girls

A Saturday filled with friends is probably the best way to spend your time. My wonderful, crazy ladies popped my Ikea cherry today, and boy was I enjoying every moment. I wanted to buy everything, but had to resort to taking mental notes for when I buy my own place. Then, we did a little more shopping close to home, stopped for a slice of pie (cuz we had shopped all the calories off, duh!), and then made our way to pick up some adult beverages. I have found my new favorite wine and was happy to find it at a small liquor store. The rest of the evening was spent reading, packing, and there may have been a nap. Of course, now I can't fall asleep because of that nap, so I will continue to clean, pack, and start a new book. Today was so much fun!! And the fun will continue with a family day tomorrow! 

Be careful what you wish for!

I'm so tired, can barely keep my eyes open. Today was a busy but productive day. I got a lot of things crossed off my to do list, and I smiled almost all day. It's the simple things in life!

Big Day

Today was a big day for Allina nurses. We voted to reject their offer and have once again, voted to strike. This time, there is no end in sight. It will be an open ended strike. A lot of thoughts and emotions are flowing through my brain. Perhaps I will share them in the coming days, but for now, I still need to process everything that's happening. 

Laughing is My Favorite

I won't bore you with another post about how much I love my friends. I wouldn't want you to be jealous of all the awesome people I have that make me laugh embarrassingly hard. I'm in such a wonderful place right now and I feel like this is the happiest I've ever been. Realizing one's self worth can be such an emotional booster. Knowing I'm good enough and deserve the best and knowing I'm worthy of the best is such an empowering feeling. Positivity really does attract positivity. That's a huge lesson doing this blog has taught me. And I'm so ready to see what else the world has in store for me! 

Adulting Day

Today was for being an adult. Errands were run, chores were done, dinner was made, and then the relaxation in the form of reading a new book took place. I'm currently snuggled in bed, reading a book, and my eyes are getting heavy. Day well spent, blessings counted. 

My Girls

What a fabulous day full of smiles and laughter! Today was filmed with tune with my friends and I couldn't get any luckier to have such awesome people in my life!! I love each and every one of you!! Thanks for such a great low key day of just hanging out! 

Boobs

I enjoyed a lovely day on call without having to go into work. I spent the day going through more stuff and ended up with another trash bag of crap I don't have to move! Then, I went to dinner with a good friend. Lots of laughs were shared. Especially when the waitress accidentally grazed my boob while setting down my plate. She was quick to apologize and said "I'm pretty sure I just touched your boob". To which I replied "That's ok. It's the most action I've gotten in months". She had a great sense of humor and laughed and then said "Same for me". Needless to say, she got a great tip! We laughed about that for the rest of the night. My boobs seem to have a mind of their own and get in the way. They've been known to take out tables when unsupervised. I have got to learn to keep an eye on these trouble makers. They sure do give me some good stories though! 

Mmmm Wine

I found my new favorite wine at my favorite restaurant. Tonight, I came home from work, and after Easter was fed and pottied, I poured myself a glass and slipped into a delightful bubble bath. I used my special bubble bath with essential oils that helped me relax. The wine just helped relax me even more. I think I will be asleep before midnight for the first time in a very long time. 

Busy Day

What a busy day! I was oncall for work for a bit so I took advantage of the spare time and went through some more stuff. I also tried out a new recipe for sugar cookies and did a little baking. I made a few adjustments to the recipe and the cookies were very yummy! Once I was called into work it was even busier! I'm more than ready for a good night's rest!

Love

The loves of my life have 4 legs. Yes, I'm talking about my dogs. They have taught me about unconditional love and have always been there for me. They know when I'm sad and give me attention. I love them with all my heart. Elvis has half, and Easter has the other half. What sparked this topic? Well, tonight as I'm laying in bed, Easter jumps up, and lady's down close to me in the crook of my arm. She rests her head on my arm, and her paw is on my chest. She looks into my eyes, and I look into hers. Then, her eyes slowly blink closed as she falls asleep. And what do I do? I cry. The love I have for this dog completely overwhelms me. I know it might sound stupid, but she's more than just a dog. She is my child and I am so thankful to have this goofy girl in my life. The same goes for my stubborn, loving guy Elvis. I'm excited to move back home so that I can get a hug from my little boy each and every day. I miss him so much and I know he will be happy to have his Mary back. 

Productive Day

I'm glad you all enjoyed the fact that I was called a bitch last night! I'm pretty sure that was my most viewed post thus far. Anyways, today was very productive. I was busy cleaning and going through all my clothes in my dressers. I am proud of myself that I downsized by half! The goodwill will be getting a large donation! All my clothes can now fit in one dresser instead of 2. That is a pretty huge accomplishment!! Yay me!! Gonna keep up this attitude and get rid of even more stuff!

Bitch

Well, let's see. Being called a bitch was the highlight of my night. At least I was able to laugh about it! Can't take those kind of moments to heart in this line of work. Just gonna crawl into bed, put on a movie I've seen 100 times, and fall asleep cuddling with my Easter bunny. I'm looking forward to my one day off this week. Lots on the to-do list, but at least it can be done without wearing a bra! Yay!

Laughter Is The Best Medicine

Working with an amazing group of people who make you laugh until you almost pee yourself has to be the best medicine in the world. I just couldn't stop laughing and I'm so lucky to have found people with the same disgusting and inappropriate humor that I have. Laughing with your friends really can make all the difference in your day. I feel so much more at peace and in a better mood. I also know that I will be able to sleep better tonight! I'm looking forward to falling asleep, cuddled up next to Easter, dreaming about all my awesome friends and thinking about all the laughter that was had tonight. 

Sleep Texting

So, today's post is a funny story about what happened today. I must start off the post with a warning.  Sleep texting is a dangerous thing. You could make plans that you don't actually wanna do, accidentally send nudes to your mom, or text that ex that you really shouldn't be talking to. Sleep texting rates right up there drunk texting. Pretty close actually. So my experience happened over night last night. I wake up multiple times in the night, and will often look at my phone. Well, I had received a message from a good friend and I completely remember reading it and then I responded. I fell asleep, woke up a little later and saw I had another text. I remember reading the text and then falling back asleep. Well, I guess that wasn't what actually happened because I woke up to another text. Had I responded? Yep. I had sleep texted. And it wasn't pretty. Here is what it looked like:

Thankfully, all I did was ramble incoherently. We both had quite the chuckle out of it!! I still laugh when I see it!! So there's why you shouldn't sleep text kids. You will end up confusing your friend!! I think maybe I'll take some tylenol pm and see what kind of message I can come up with! Get ready, Jenny!!

Girls Day Part 2

Today was another great day. I had lunch and saw a movie with my bestie and most favorite roomie! We saw Ghostbusters and I thought it was really good! I can't remember the last movie I saw in the theater that made me laugh that hard. I was then in a cleaning/organizing mood, so I went to town. My living room looks awesome, so much space now that I just have a love seat. Tomorrow, the cleaning/organizing will continue in my bedroom. Feels good to have things in order. Gotta start going through all my stuff to get rid of the crap, and to start packing!

Girls Day Part 1

What a lovely day!! Spent the day with an awesome friend! We went to lunch, got our nails done, went to Costco (yes, I have been shown the light and I'm officially hooked!), and then had dinner and hung out at her place. We even got the pups together for a play date! It was a great day! Now I have pretty toes and fingers, a fully belly, and enough toilet paper to last me a year!! I also had a productive night. I got several things in order in regards to my move, so I am feeling pretty good. Overall, it was a fun and productive day!! 

Headache

I have a pounding headache and am not gonna write a long post. Positive moment was that I made it through work,  no one died, and I didn't cry. Me not crying is always a positive. 

Cool As A Cucumber

Today didn't start off the greatest. I was crabby because I got no sleep last night. It was way too hot to sleep. Even Easter was having a rough night. I felt so bad for my poor baby. Thankfully, after a very miserable night, the repair man came and fixed my air. Once things started to cool off, I was able to take a quick nap before work. Not nearly as much sleep as I needed, but thankful for SOME sleep. Work was ok, got to work with some of my faves (not all tho!). I'm very much looking forward to actually being able to get some much needed sleep tonight, and I know Easter is too!! 

That's What Friends Are For

I spent a majority of the day beyond irritated and frustrated. People don't seem to think MY time is of any value and that I can handle shit that isn't my responsibility. I am so sick and tired of making sacrifices for people who wouldn't and won't do the same for me. I'm tired of always being the bigger person and having to put my "adult" pants on. Even when it's not my concern. It's not fair. And I'm done doing it for people. Handle your own shit. Be an adult, and take care of your own responsibilities. I can't even put into words how angry I was today (and frankly, still am). I tried not to let it get to me, but it just grated on my nerves all day. My one saving grace was going to lunch with a friend. We went to the Cheesecake Factory and enjoyed a nice meal together and an even better dessert. She was able to take my mind off of my frustrations and showed me the positives of the day. On the ride to and from lunch, we rocked out to music and it calmed my soul- even if it was for a brief moment. She helped distract me and make me laugh and those are the moments I am clinging to in order to stay positive. I'm thankful for the friends in my life that are supportive and bend over backwards for me. I'd go to the ends of the earth for them, and they'd do (and have done) the same for me. 

Pooped

The heat sure can take a lot out of a person. Today was a busy day of moving things and seeing friends. It just reassured me that I am on the road I am meant to be on. Life is as it should be.

Sunday Chores

Today was a day of chores and helping my mom. We have been busy going through stuff and cleaning out in anticipation of my move back home for the winter. We have gotten rid of a bunch of stuff and even took another load to the Goodwill today. I know it won't be easy to share a space with my mom again, but I am thankful for her hospitality and kindness to let me move back in so that I can save more money to buy my own place. Maybe I'll even let her have a room for when she visits me! Who am I kidding.... I better find a house with a mother-in-law suite in the basement! But that won't be until spring, so I gotta keep focusing on the positives now- great friends, supportive family, and always a little humor found in all situations. 

Send Out The Vibes

I've noticed that the more positivity that you put out into the world, the more you get in return. I have been noticing more abs more that I can not tolerate the constant negativity that some people put out. I just want to scream that perhaps they should try being positive for simply a day and see how much their lives change. It has taken me a while to get to this positive place, but the longer I'm here, the easier it is to stay here. Also, is harder to deal with negative people. So, make a positive choice for the day. Even if it's only one,  it is a step in the right direction. Join me on this road to a more positive life. You won't regret it!

Girl's Night

What happens at girls night, stays at girls night. All you get to know is that it was fun and lots of laughs were had! Definitely what I needed! Feeling much happier and positive!

Mental Health Day

If anyone tells you that nursing is an easy career, they are either lying or are just a shitty nurse. It can take a toll on a person both physically and mentally. Things get even tougher when you see bad things happen to good people, and then you have to deal with someone who is there just for the drugs. A young mother is dying in one room, and in the room across the hall is a young woman who just can't get enough of that pain medication that starts with a D. Despite all that, you have the patients who ate extremely appreciative for every little thing you do. I recently had a patient for 2 short hours. I discharged her, and in those few short hours, I had made such an impression on her that she hugged me not once, but twice. Those are the moments I cling to and hold close to my heart. They are what get me through the low moments. 

Bad Day

Today was a rough one. I thought about skipping writing the post but I didn't want to fall into a pattern and make it a habit of skipping posts. So I slept like shit, woke up in a poor mood, was crabby, work was rough, didn't get a break, and didn't eat anything. My positive moment is that I am now in bed, cuddling with my little Easter, and will be drifting off to dream land shortly after posting this!

I know I know

I know I didn't write a post last night. I was in bed thinking about it but chose not to write one. I was not feeling well and was not in the best mood. I figured a lack of post would be better than spreading negativity. Today was a better day! I made a new friend abs that always makes me happy! I also spent the afternoon with a good friend. We went to the grocery store, and since she was nice enough to come with me, I made dinner. It was yummy! Made me excited for my Friday girl's night. Can't wait to spend some time just hanging with my girls and being silly. 

Bed Time

Too tired to write much tonight. I'm ready to crash and sleep. Today I am thankful for friends who listen to me bitch about life. 

Party Time

Spent the evening with some pretty awesome people!! I had a fabulous time laughing, sharing stories, and jumping on a trampoline! Yep, my ass jumped on a trampoline. What a fun night!! And now I'm exhausted and looking forward to sleeping until noon!

First Dates Suck

I absolutely hate first dates. The awkwardness, the nerves, and all that crap. Tonight was no different. But as soon as we said hello, all that crap went away.  It was a lovely evening of chatting over drinks, getting to know each other, and telling terrible jokes that made us both laugh. I was called beautiful and gorgeous countless times tonight and I didn't even have a drop of makeup on. It was casual, but I felt like the prettiest girl in the room. We both agreed that a second date would be happening, and I look forward to that. My smile is plastered on and won't come off, no matter how hard I try. I'm definitely taking things slow right now, but I like the path I'm on!

TGIF... Wait. What?

It was a short work week for me, but tonight packed a punch. I'm just happy I got to spend some time with some awesome ladies!! I will never stop talking about how blessed I am to have such wonderful friends. And if you are tired of hearing it, it is probably because you are jealous. I have so many exciting things planned for this year and into next year that I just can't contain my excitement!! Should make for some fun blog posts!!

Excitement Takes Away The Pain

Slept like shit last night because I had to keep getting up to spend some time in the bathroom. Then, I spent most of the day feeling nauseous and fighting the abdominal pain. I was graced with a low need from work at 7p.m. I came home, took some zofran, and texted my friends. The best part of the night was planning a girls trip for my birthday! It's gonna be a blast! But you will just have to wait to hear about that. After getting the details hammered out, I decided to take a nice warm bubble bath. It was absolutely lovely. I used my essential oil infused bubble bath and that helped with the nausea. Just to be sure, I made sure to take more zofran and am now in the comfort of my bed. Soft music is playing and wonderful plans and people keep running through my head. My smile is permanent. I'm going to sleep well and have some pretty wonderful dreams. 

Lazy Day

Today, I was productive on my day off and did some cleaning and organizing. Also did some good research on movers and all that fun stuff! I spent the day busy, and in the evening I took a nap! A well deserved nap I might add! After my nap, I watched a movie and talked to some friends! What a great way to spend the day. Today ended with a very special phone call and it made me feel so amazing and excited for what's to come. I'm enjoying life right now, and haven't been this happy in a long time! Again, people have told me that there has been a positive change in me and they like what they see. I'm glad, because I like this me too!

Melting Pot

What a wonderful day!! Started off by sleeping for 12 hours straight and it was lovely!! Then I came back to my place and got ready for an even lovelier time out with some awesome ladies. I sure have missed them and am so glad that we have grown even closer now. Life always finds a way to bring you closer to the people who are meant to be in your life. They have been so supportive and encouraging of my new found strength and I smile everyday because of them. 

Tired Lady

Last night, I stayed for a double at work. That's means I worked the evening shift and stayed to work the night shift as well. 16 straight hours of work was tough but I had some amazing ladies by my side every step of the way. I couldn't have made it without them and am so beyond grateful for all their help and support!! I actually had fun!! But I'm pretty exhausted after only a short nap this morning. I'm so looking forward to crawling in bed and passing out. 

Soul Therapy

It was a long night at work and I'm exhausted. But on my drive home, I was listening to music and felt inspired my the lyrics and music. Lately, I've been listening to my iPod instead of the radio and I have found myself in a better mood. Music really is my therapy and I hadn't been listening to the music that really speaks to my soul and lifts me up. Tonight, I realized just how much I'd missed my old friends like Janis Joplin and Sonny and Cher, just to name a few. I'm gonna keep the therapy coming and let the music wash over me and into my soul. 

Friendship Day

Today was definitely a day for friends. So, I didn't get everything done that I had planned, but I did spend time either talking to awesome friends, or hanging out with them. I know alot of my posts lately have been about my friends, but they have been so important lately. With everything I've been through in the last few weeks, they have all been wonderfully supportive and caring. They have gotten me through the rough times, picked me up, helped me dust off, and get back to living life.  I'm truly blessed to have so many amazing cheerleaders in my corner. They all have helped me more than they know. They've also shown me my own strength. Strength and courage I didn't think I had. But I do. Also, they've helped me realize just how much I deserve out of life and have proven to me that I am worth it, and worthy of everything I desire. I am so very blessed to have these angels I call friends in my life!

Terrific Tuesday

Tonight was way better than last night at work. I'm still pretty exhausted though, and am heading to bed shortly. I am very much looking forward to my one day off tomorrow. I have a lot to get done around the house, and am hoping to go through a bunch of stuff and take more to the Goodwill. Also, I made reservations for dinner at The Melting Pot, which I am super excited to try!! How can you go wrong with melty cheese and chocolate fondue? Sweet dreams of cheesy rivers are in my future!

Monster Monday

Rough day at work. Very tired. My positive moment of the day is that no one died today. Glad I survived my shift. 

Eventful Day!

Today was quite eventful! I had hoped for a relaxing sunday spent with friends and my mom. It started out that way! I woke up and went to have lunch with my bestie. Had to update her on changes in my life, and had to catch up on her life! We had a great time talking and laughing! When I got home, I decided a nap was needed. Probably to make up for the sleep I list on the day I got up before 9! After my nap, I helped mom with chores around the house and we decided to go pick up Noodles for dinner. We went in, got our to go order, and returned to the car. When mom turned the key nothing happened. Panic mode set in. She tried it a couple more times, and still nothing. She looked at me and said she didn't know what to do. I calmly told her that she should call AAA. She told me to get her car manual from the glove box and began frantically going through it, trying to find an answer that wasn't there. To her surprise, 2 police offers pulled up to grab some dinner. She decided to talk to them about what she could do. When she came back, she said that they had told her to call AAA if she had that service. Hmmm. If only someone had thought of that earlier!! So we did, and we waited, and they finally showed up. The technician checked the battery and said it wasn't holding a charge like it was supposed to. She gave it a jump and it started right up. She also warned my mom that when she got home and shut off the car, that it would most likely not start up again and that she needed a new battery. Thankfully, she had one left and popped in the new one!! We were so thankful for her!! She saved the day!! AAA is a life saver and definitely worth having!! 

Tired

Long and busy day today. I was actually up before 9am. Mom and I were produce and cleaned out a bunch of stuff. We even took a huge load of crap to the goodwill! I'm pretty tired now and didn't get a chance to nap so I'm sure I'll sleep really well!!

Friday Night Living

I'm so cool that my Friday included sleeping until noon, unpacking groceries for my mom, making chicken salad, and watching tv with my mom. I know you are all jealous. And let me tell you something- I enjoyed every minute of the day. I needed some mother and daughter to lime to relax and be silly with my mom. I'm hoping this weekend will be more of much needed relaxation.

Crazy

I know I'm supposed to be a professional health care worker and not label people, but I have to call them like I see them. And there are some super crazy people out there! And I mean just in general, not a patient at work or anything. Go look at people at Walmart and you'll see the crazy I'm talking about! Those are the obvious ones. Then there are the people that look pretty normal and then they start talking. Those ones scare me. You never know what you'll get. But let's focus on the positives of the day... I didn't get murdered by any of the crazies. That's a great thing. Also, I think I'm pretty level headed. I do like shopping at Walmart, but I never wear pajamas or allow people to put plastic bags over their heads while there.  So there's another positive!

Positivity Comes Around

I posted a status on Facebook today about my new found happiness and every word was true. I've found that when you focus on yourself with positivity, life gives you positive moments back. I've found a strength I didn't think I had. I surprised myself with just how strong I could be. I also found out that the world keeps going, even when you thought it wouldn't. The sun still rises, and I wake up each morning knowing that each day is new and has endless posibilities. What will tomorrow bring?

Stormy Weather

Just in case you don't have a tv, a window, or slept through it, we had a good storm tonight. Thankfully, there's no damage in my area. I watched the sky turn green as the clouds let down a wonderful shower. Lots of thunder and lightening that Easter didn't enjoy as much as I did. She hid in the bathroom with her thundershirt on while I made dinner. It was a great family bonding moment. I wish I could comfort her and let her know that she's ok and safe with me. I bribed her with treats and she was ok with that. We watched movies and cuddled while the storm moved through. Now it's bed time and she is stretched out and practically pushing me out of this king size bed. Man I love her!!

4th of July

What a wonderful holiday spent with great friends! First half was spent in the pool just relaxing with some awesome people! Second half was spent watching fireworks with some more cool people. I was so happy to finally be off work and watching fireworks. They are simply one of my favorite things. I felt like a little kid again and just enjoyed watching each and every explosion in the air! 

Family and Friends

I had hoped for a low need today so that I could spend some time with nt mom and a very close family friend who I consider family. I was lucky enough to get it, and I did just that. We talked, laughed, and shared stories. I absolutely love and cherish those times we have together. I only wish they would last longer. I'm so lucky to have someone I consider a second mother. She had always been there for me and would do anything I needed. She looks after me like a mother and has my best interests at heart. And heaven help the person who hurts me because they will have not one, but two angry lioness' after them!! I'm so very blessed in so many ways!

Laughter is the Best

Laughing is honestly one of my favorite things to do. And tonight at work, lots of laughs were had. This weekend crew is my favorite crew to work with. They make coming to work fun and just a tad more enjoyable! I'm so lucky to have such an amazing group of friends who have been super supportive lately and have been there for me when I needed them most. I'm truly blessed in life with wonderful people surrounding me.

Good Place

I totally forgot to write a post last night. I guess I needed some time to myself for some self-reflection. Life has put me on a different path, but I am stronger and happier for it. I am where I was meant to be, and I know good things are on the horizon. I am amazed at my strength and courage to embark on this new path. I have realized that I am a strong person and can get through anything life decides to throw at me. I've made it this far in life with strength and grace, and I will continue to do so. 

A Little Bit Stronger

Today was a tough day. Those close to me know why. I don't really feel like talking about it here because this is a place for happiness and joyous moments. I feel like I'm in a good place right now and that's what I'm going to focus on. Taking care of myself is a top priority. I haven't lost my positive outlook and intend to keep finding the good in all situations. Life goes on and you learn to live in the moment and cherish those around you.

Finally Home

Tonight I was finally reunited with my home unit, and boy oh boy did it feel good to be home. Not only was I back home, but I even got to see some of my awesome friends and coworkers. And let me tell you, they were totally awesome. I've been feeling down lately, and my wonderful friends were so amazing and supportive tonight. Just what I needed!! I'm so thankful they are in my life. I am a lucky girl! Again, I'm pretty tired from a busy shift so it's time for me to try and get some sleep. Since going on strike, I have not gotten a good nights rest. My nerves are still kind of running hot and will take time to settle down a bit. Perhaps a benadryl or 2 will help me get some rest!

Home Sweet Home.... Sort Of.

It feels good to be back home at work! Well, almost home. I was back at work, but wasn't on my home unit. Actually, it was kind of a nice change of pace. I was even asked to dance by a patient. First time anyone has ever danced with me! It was actually kind of sweet! Made my night a little sweeter. Added to the lovely lady I chatted with this morning. Both of them have no idea just how much those small moments meant to me and just how much they were needed. I wish I had the energy to write more tonight, but I took some benadryl to soothe some insect bites that have gotten quite out of control. On one of my thighs it looks as though someone punched me super hard. The swelling has gone down a bit but now it is bruising. Ok, enough about my ailments. That's not what this blog is about! It's all about finding those small moments in the day that you don't know you need until they happen. 

Family Day

Today was spent with my mom and my aunt. We sat around talking, laughing, and eating delicious cake. They really enjoyed my new recipe and added it to the "make again" list. We also spent some time looking at old pictures of my grand parents and my great grandparents. I marveled at how much genes get passed along. My aunt looks exactly like my great grandmother, and there were a few pictures where my mom looked exactly like her mom. I was able to see a few pictures of my mom when she was a baby and a little girl. The strange part was that when I was that age, I looked just like her. Imagine that. Then my mom pulled out my grandparent's wedding album. My grandma looked so beautiful and happy. My grandpa looked so handsome. Their love for each other was evident in the pictures and it made me hope that one day my wedding pictures will capture a love like theirs. The genuine smiles. The stolen glances caught on film. The loving gazes shared between them. I can't wait for that. They were such a beautiful couple and shared such a beautiful life together. I never had the chance to meet my grandmother, but my mom talks about her all the time. It makes me feel like I sort of knew her. This afternoon was a fun time to hear my aunt and my mom share stories about my grandparents. My mom said that up until my grandma passed away, my grandpa would always grab my grandma's hand while they were out. I think that is so sweet to see older couples show affection like that. Seeing that love can last through the years makes my heart happy. And to know my grandparent's had a strong love like that made me hopeful for my future. I want a love like theirs. 

Fun Saturday

Spent the day with some awesome people and celebrated a cute little guy's birthday. Then came home to get out of the heat, spent time on the couch, and then later this evening I decided to try out a new recipe and bake a cake! Looks pretty tasty so far! Can't wait to have my testers give it a try!!

Burnt to a Crisp

Today was a relaxing day in the sun and some fun at the pool was had with an awesome friend. I am totally burnt to a crisp despite my futile efforts of applying sun screen. Guess my new red skin tone sports my fellow nurses more than I'd like to admit. This pasty girl should be more careful in the sun. That bastard keeps trying to kill me. My night was spent at a fun grad party and I even made a new friend! We had tons in common and enjoyed getting to know each other while our boyfriends went off and played. The sun sure has drained my energy and I am looking forward to a deep sleep!

Picketing Day

Another day of picketing with some pretty amazing people. The bonding that has happened this week is incredible and only makes us stronger. I'm looking forward to the next few days and spending it with some great friends. 

Hump Day

Tonight will be a short post. It was a relaxing day and I did a lot of cooking. For dinner I made apple bourbon pulled pork and corn on the cob. Earlier in the day I made some chicken salad. Later this week I will be trying out a new recipe for chocolate cake. It looks delicious and I can't wait to try it. Might need a few taste testers!

Blah

I have had a rough day. My view has mostly been of the bathroom, but I won't elaborate on that. I'm exhausted and probably a little dehydrated. Looking forward to some sleep. Hopefully, it will be uninterrupted sleep. 

Strike Day Two

Day two of the strike and thankfully the heat had died down a bit! Another exhausting day, but all for a good cause!! I'm pretty pooped after 4 hours of walking and don't know how people do it for more than that!! You guys ate rock stars!!

First Day of the Strike

Today was an emotional day. The strike started at 7am this morning and I was there to support the nurses that had worked over night and were escorted out. It was very powerful. I'm sure the nurses could feel the love as they came toward the waiting crowd of cheers. With no sleep last night, I was quite tired, but knew I had to be there. Luckily for me, the heat got to me and I had to head home before passing out. The last thing I wanted was to be the first one to pass out and I sure as hell didn't want to be taken into the hospital with all those scabs. Rest assured that I will get a good night's sleep tonight and will be at it again tomorrow! #nursesneedcare2

Eve of Strike

As the night turns into the morning, my nerves are ramping up. I know I need to get some rest, but my mind is racing and the thoughts just won't leave me alone. Tomorrow is a big day for us nurses and it is our time to finally stand up for what we deserve, as well as what our patient's deserve. 

Low Need

Today was my turn for a low need. I spent it cleaning, playing with Easter,  took her for a long walk, met our new neighbor and her dog, and then spent the evening with some amazing friends. Lots of laughing. So much so, that my lungs feel like they are on fire! It was definitely a stress free night that was much needed. I haven't been sleeping well which only prolongs this damn cold. My frazzled nerves also reak havoc on my intestinal issues...which means frequent stops to the restroom. Fun times. I'm hoping my nerves settle a bit since I'll be spending more time with my amazing friends. We gotta keep each other laughing through this hard time. 

Broken Record

I know I sound like a broken record, but I really do work with some awesome people!! When I see I'm working with some certain people,  I know a few laughs will be had. Tonight was one of those nights. I really love my awesome friends!! 

Day off

I almost took a day off from writing because I'm still feeling crappy. Even with low energy, I still pushed myself to work out, get groceries, and do a little fun shopping. I love going to pet stores and buying stuff for my fur babies. Easter got a new blinged out collar, and Elvis got a new toy! Can't wait until he sees it. He loves getting new toys! Even if it's a paper bag. Work is becoming more and more difficult as the strike nears. Tensions are high and my nerves are shot. I'm just so thankful I have a wonderful work family who will support one another through this difficult time. 

Smiles

The message of the day today is that a smile can go a long way. It's the simple action but oh, how it can make a difference. Just be very careful though because I once got in trouble for smiling too much!! True story!! Tonight on my way home from work, I was gonna stop and pick up groceries but decided not to. I stopped to get gas and went inside to get a gatorade. After my purchase, I said thank you and smiled to the lady behind the counter. As I left, I turned to her and said "have a good night". Her face brightened, she smiled and said thank you very much. I could tell she didn't hear it very often and I hope I made her night a little better!

Not Sure

I can't believe I almost forgot to wrote a post tonight. Must be this crummy sickness that just won't go away. Today the body aches set in. But the good news is that work went by fast tonight and I got to work with some great people! Hopefully I will start feeling better in the next few days so that my posts are slightly more in depth. 

Missed a Day

I'm upset at myself!! How could I completely forget to do a blog post? Must have been because I had such a fun and busy day!! Yesterday, we spent the day at the aquarium, zoo, driving along the shore, shopping in Two Harbors, and walking in a park along the lake. It was a lovely day and I even got to see an otter AND a kangaroo!! A wonderful day!! Today wasn't quite as busy since it was back to reality, but it sure was nice to finally get home! There's nothing like sleeping in your own bed!! Speaking off going to bed, I am absolutely wiped out and ready to call it a night!!

Relaxation

I'm in Duluth at a beautiful bed and breakfast. I was just settling in to bed after a busy day, and realized just before closing my eyes that I had a blog post to do. Well, Duluth is beautiful as always, not too hot up here, and this bed is pretty comfy. Good night!!

Sicker

Woke up feeling even worse than yesterday and even had a temp. Lovely day. I decided to head tiny mom's because no one takes care of you when you are sick quite like your mom. Wait a second. Mine usually just tells me to suck it up. Well, she was kind enough to let me crash on her couch for the day and even finished the laundry that I started. I'm a lucky girl to have such an awesome mom!

Hump Day

Sick day. Didn't stray too far from the couch today. Easter got all of her walks in though! I attempted to make some soup but it had other plans and landed on my floor. Sums up my day pretty well. I'm still alive and I lived to see another day so I am the lucky one. 

Average Tuesday

Today was a low key day compared to yesterday. I probably should have gone grocery shopping, but really didn't feel like adulting all that much today. I went to a movie with a friend and it was great! We saw Money Monster, which is the one with George Clooney and Julia Roberts. It started off slow, but once it got going, it held my interest and was really good! I came home thinking that I would finally make it to the grocery store after working out. Well, the most important thing is that I got my work out in! And so what if I don't have food... less temptations around right? I had a lot of time to think about things today, and that's not always a good thing in my case. I'm gonna go to bed knowing that I did the best I could today and that's what truly matters. 

The Fight is On!

Today was voting day for all the nurses in the Allina hospitals. We had a great turn out and stood together in solidarity. Tonight, the results were tallied. I was anxious to hear the outcome of the votes for all the hospitals. When the results were posted, I was relieved to see that all 4 hospitals came together and voted for the strike! We are all united and are ALL standing together to show this money hungry corporation that we will NOT settle for less than what we deserve. Some people have brought up the question "Why should nurses have great health care over the rest of us?". The answer is- we don't. In all honesty, EVERYONE should be as lucky as we are to have the option to have great insurance. But if you want to get down to the nitty gritty, here's the truth: we risk our own health to help you while you are ill. If you follow the news, you know that two nurses recently contracted TB. We are exposed to TB, Ebola, Hepatitis, HIV, and many many more contagious diseases. Not only are we at risk for diseases, we are also at a higher risk for work place violence. Again, I'm sure if you follow the news, you may recall a story in which a man severely injured several nurses when he took apart an IV stand and began to ruthlessly beat the nurses that were in his path. How does that compare to someone who sits at a desk all day? Sure there are other dangers, like carpel tunnel, but not immediate. In an ideal world, the person sitting behind that desk and nurses would have the same good insurance. In essence, what we are fighting for isn't just for us, we are fighting so that perhaps one day, you can sleep easier knowing your family is protected with health insurance that fully covers your needs. Nurses spend our days caring for everyone else. Today is the day we ask for you to care for us! 

Productive Day

Being on call today gave me the much needed extra time to finish cleaning and get everything on my list done. My dishes have been washed and put away. The kitchen floor has been swept, vacuumed, and mopped. The living room has been picked up and vacuumed. It's a lovely feeling to have everything neat and tidy. I'm hoping it stays this way! Today, I'm thankful for the motivation that I had to get everything accomplished. I will also admit that I did allow myself to break down for a bit and have a good cry. After I was done, I picked myself up and moved on. Nothing will be accomplished if you stay down in your own pity party. No one but yourself is gonna pull yourself out, so why make it cozy down there all by yourself? It's something I still struggle with, but I'm getting better about letting things go. I allow myself a minute to do what I need to do- which is usually cry for a bit- but then, instead of staying in that mopey place, I stand up and move on. I'm not perfect at it yet, but I'm getting there. 

The Golden Rule

So I have been feeling pretty down the last couple of days, and have found it difficult to stay positive. I found myself in an emotional slump and I didn't want to slide further down that slope so I tried to pick myself up by getting my mind off of things. I did this by working out. Which, yes, it is a new habit I'm making myself get into. Once the endorphins were flowing, I had a realization. I'm gonna start treating people the way they treat me. The people that are amazing have nothing to worry about. It's the people who treat me like shit and act as though I only exist when it's convenient have something to worry about! Perhaps people need to evaluate their own actions as to why a person feels a certain way around them. Oh, your friend is sad? Maybe you should ask them about it. Hmmm. What a concept. I appreciate the people that genuinely care about me and know that I truly care for you and my love will be given back 10 fold to the people who SHOW me they are truly there for me. I have a lot of love to give to the right people. I know I'm not the easiest person to love, but when I love you- I fall hard and will fight for every last friendship/relationship I'm in. If you don't feel the same, you know where the door is. Eliminating negativity is all about what this whole process is about!

The Struggle is Real

I really don't feel like writing tonight. Not because it was a crappy day or anything, but because I just got done putting new sheets on my bed. We all know that's a work out in it's self. So, positive of the day- I don't need to sleep on ripped sheets anymore! My new ones are here and are super cute. And that makes me very happy! Yay! Time for bed now in my fancy new sheets!

Great Day

I had a great day off!! I had lunch with such an amazing group of friends a girl could possibly ask for. We spent the afternoon, laughing, saying inappropriate things, and passing babies back and forth across the table like they were hot potatoes. I haven't laughed like that in a long while. I don't want to sound like a broken record going on and on about how funny and awesome my friends are, but I really am so lucky. I finally feel like I can be my complete self, no matter how awkward or inappropriate I might be. Some of them even think I'm a little bit funny, which is always a plus! With all the talk about an impending strike, I think we all needed an afternoon like this. We were able to just enjoy each others company and laugh about things. It was a way for us all to de-stress and relax for a minute before having to get back to financial planning and work topics. 

After I got home, I was in a cleaning mood. Now, normally I only clean when I get angry, but this time I wasn't. Well, not TOO angry at least! I deep cleaned my bathroom with a freaking tooth brush and it is now sparkling and beautiful. I even started on my living room and kitchen. Work still needs to be done, but it WILL get done because I'm in the zone and I am all about being productive lately!! 

Fun Weirdos

I'm so thankful to have so many inappropriate weirdos in my life. They keep me laughing and teach me how to get through life without committing murder. I'm such a lucky person to have found people who share my inappropriate humor and laugh at my terrible jokes! They make me think I'm actually funny. 

I Want It That Way

I will admit that I started this day with a piss poor attitude. To my surprise, that changed when I got to work. I worked with some fun people and even got a call from another great friend! My positive attitude just kept getting better even on my drive home. I rocked out to some Backstreet Boys and made an ass out of myself dancing and singing. My favorite thing to do is find a moment each day to make an ass out of myself. And since I'm socially awkward, I have no trouble doing so. But those stories are for another time. 

Memorial Day

Finding the positives in the day isn't always easy. When you are feeling down and out, sometimes its hard to even want to focus on the good. But then there are days like today that feel like an emotional rollercoaster. I get angry or frustrated, and a little bit later the sun shines through and I feel the positivity flowing. I'm happy to say that since starting this blog, it has gotten easier to pull myself into the positive side of things. The best part of the day is always crawling into my nice warm bed, but tonight I was met with an ugly sight. A huge hole in my sheets. How in the hell did I miss that? Well, let me just say, my sheets picked a good time to bite the dust because I went online to order some new ones and found a super cute design for 70% off! That's right!! I saved money!! Woo hoo!! Best way to end the night!! I'm a nerd. I know. I like deals. But awesome deals like that cannot be beat! I win at life!! 

It's All About The Climb

I'm slowly starting to feel better and not feel so crappy. I'm still low on energy, but that seems to be gradually returning. I'm hoping that tonight will include an uninterrupted nights rest. For the past few nights, I was up every couple hours. I'm more than ready for a good night's sleep. 

Tired and Low Energy

For the past few days I've been feeling a little under the weather and have been been tired. Today has been a not so good day. Feeling dizzy, lightheaded, and pretty run down/no energy. I'm fairly certain that my hemoglobin is low. Hopefully, I'll start feeling better in the next few days. Until then, I'm gonna rest up and make Ben pamper me a little.

This sucks

Totally forgot to do a post tonight because I'm not feeling the greatest. All I have to say is being a girl sucks!! Men, be thankful that you don't have to deal with periods and cramps and everything that goes along with it. This sucks ass.

Icy Breath of Death

The icy breath of death was on my neck tonight. My life flashed before my eyes... it was short and dull. But before I get to that, let me say that work tonight was wonderful. Great people working, lots of laughs, and some work got done too. All around good night where you can't ask for much better. Ok, now back to my near death experience. So I drove to my mom's after work to spend the night due to some early appointments that are all near her house. I came in, dropped off my stuff, and went upstairs to let Elvis out of my mom's room (otherwise he just cries at the gate). So both dogs follow me back downstairs and into the kitchen where I begin to fix myself a snack. When I turn around, I see a huge spider on the ground. I gasp in horror at how ugly it is, trying not to scream and wake up my mom. I point to it like that will do much of anything. The dogs see me pointing, Elvis sniffs it and walks away, but then my life saver Easter saved her mom. Just as the spider pulled a large knife from his back pocket, Easter sniffed him and then ate him. To add insult to injury to that bastard spider, Easter chewed on him more than she chews her food. And to top it off, when she was through, she let out a little burp. Almost as if the spider was admitting defeat. And that's how my meth mouth puppy saved the day. 

Explosions in my Head

Sometimes, I feel like all I do is bang my head against a wall and get nowhere. It seems as though the words I speak go in one ear and out the other. But then again, some people just get me. They understand me without having to speak. I have to say, my saving grace this evening was the wonderful people I work with. Tonight was a great group of people to work with and makes a difficult night just a tad bit better. I'm not even dreading going to work tomorrow because I know they will be there to make me laugh and we will get each other through the shift. 

Ok, so this is a little not on topic, but I've been binge watching Breaking Bad and I don't want to stop. I'm a few episodes into season 3, just watched the one where he throws a pizza onto the roof. Laughed my ass off. It has the dark humor that I miss from Sons of Anarchy. I need to go to bed and stop binge watching. 

Stars in the Sky

There really isn't anything quite like the tranquility of nature to calm the soul. I'm a chronic over thinker and when my brain gets fired up, sometimes it doesn't stop. But tonight was different. I decided to take a nice long walk around the lake with Easter and just take in the beauty of the setting sun over the lake. We braved the heat and kept walking. The calmness on the lake was absolutely beautiful. Not even a ripple could be seen. The calmness seemed to permeate my soul and the stillness that was the lake made it's way into my brain and soul. It seemed to quiet every fear, every doubt. Just peace. And as we took a final walk just now, there was not a cloud in the sky. The stars were shining brightly, and there was a stillness in the air. No barking dogs, no cars speeding by. Just me, Easter, and the stars. Perfect ending to the day. No over thinking tonight. Just peace. 

Monday, Monday

I had a lovely day off today. I didn't do a whole lot, but for some reason I'm tired. Must have wore myself out by getting my steps in today. I'm looking forward to another day off, but this one will have to be productive. The laundry is piling up, dishes need to be done from the awesome meal I cooked tonight, and it's probably time to do some dusting and vacuuming. Ugh. I hate having to be an adult. I'd rather nap all day and have someone pamper me. Well, here's hoping I win the lottery so I can pay someone to pamper me! Maybe I should start by buying a lottery ticket....

Date Day

Today was a day for relaxing, having fun, and laughing with my boyfriend. We spent the morning bowling, had lunch and then went grocery shopping. It was much needed after a stressful week. I'm hoping my next few days off will bring more relaxation and laughter.